Calling It Quits…
Up to this point, we had been in some sort of weird limbo. B wanted to remain together. I was unsure if I was able to move on from this. […]
1 Year, 2 Months, and 7 Days
Early Days of Hell… He accused me early on for not fighting for him. This whole exchange is constantly turning over in my mind. I didn’t fight for him. He, […]
Would Have Been 18th Anniversary
On Saturday, B told me he wanted to go out and buy me a gift for our anniversary. It would have been our 18th anniversary today. I asked him not […]
Facing the Music
I’m currently hiding. I am at my sister in law’s home. I love her more than anything, but my mother in law is another story. We made the 3.5 hour trip down here to see B’s family. While I may not be MIL’s favorite person, I know my children need […]
Off to the Homeland
We started our trek to Chicago. The first trip with the kids since the separation. We are going home for Christmas to see family, both mine and his. B will […]
41
My 41st birthday. Ugh. I spent my birthday at home. I was sick with a fever. I missed work. Luckily, there were no kids in that day. I feel older […]
Monster Asked a Question
When we were at the doctor on Monday, Monster was talking about something we were going to do while we were home for Christmas. I gently reminded her that Dad […]
6 Months Since…
It’s been 6 months since my world fell apart. 6 months since everything changed. Who I am. Who I thought he was. Who we are. It both feels like it […]
When Will It Happen?
Last night was the first night B didn’t come for dinner in a while. It was nice. I won’t lie. The problem was it set off all kinds of alarm […]
US Mama In Hong Kong 