I went to the gym in the morning. I was fine when I came back to the flat. I was able to take a shower and all of that, but something went wrong. I ended up in so much pain. I couldn’t move.

Monster worked on her clay while I was in bed. She wouldn’t leave my side. She was a huge help. At one point, I got up to use the bathroom. I was in so much pain, I thought I was going to pass out on the bathroom floor. Everything in me was screaming to call and beg B to come home, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t do it at all. I could not bring myself to depend on him.

I am so grateful to that little monster. She was a real trooper through the whole thing. She really took great care of me.

When B came for dinner that night, he chided me about not taking help. I told him Monster had been helping me, and I had asked for her help. He was upset. I had rejected his help. I didn’t do it to hurt him. It was a realization though.