I can’t believe it’s been 2 months.  It feels like so much longer yet it has flew by.  I am sitting up in the lounge right now waiting for another teacher to show them how to use Google.  He and his wife have been in China for the last 10 years.  I guess they didn’t get any Google over there.  I find that really interesting.  A country can be so against something that it bans it.  And Google of all things.

So we sat down and went through Google Classroom.  It was really great to go though and work on something that I am very interested in.  In my previous school, I was working towards Google Apps certification.  I love special education, but I have always loved working with tech as well.  I am very interested in the Google Apps especially as it pertains to education.  I was sad to stop pursuing it when we left, but there is just some much more to do.  

I do love to feel useful as well.  I have been here for two months.  I feel so lost in everything because it’s such a different way of teaching.  MYP in the IB is so different from what I am used to in the US.  It isn’t bad at all.  I love it.  I am just not used to it.  I have worked with such low kids for the last 5 years to actually be teaching capable kids is mind-blowing.  I love it.  

I wonder sometimes if I am out of my depth.  I wonder if I really know all I think I know. There are many times I feel like a total and complete fraud.  My HOD praises me for my knowledge ,and I just want to scream, “I am a fraud!”  I wonder if anyone else sees it.

If anything, this whole thing has been such a humbling experience.  I have started to question whether I do know what I’m doing.  While this is so unnerving, I think it is also good.  It means growth, right?